The first stanza of Amazing Grace:
Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me….
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now, I see.
The stories from the Book of Judges echo this understanding of one’s self and community. There is something inherently wretched within us all. Put a lot of wretched people together that God, for some reason, dearly loves and the story of Judges unfolds.
There is something both alarming and comforting about these stories. It just so happens that what I find to be alarming is comforting; what I find to be comforting is alarming. The comforting and alarming part of these stories is that the Israelites (or, insert my name, your name, etc.) consistently fall into the trap of sin. They fall into the trap almost immediately after God intervenes and gives them victory over their enemies.
In each story, though, through the ‘forgetting of God’ and the worship of other gods, He responds to their cries for mercy. He responds to their desperate cries for help. The wretched, idolatrous, disgusting people He loves so dearly–even in the deepest depth of their sin–simply call out and He responds.
I find my behavior not all that dissimilar from the Israelites. It is alarming in the sense that I am aware of my depraved, fallible nature. It is comforting in the sense that the God of creation deemed them worthy of redemption. I have to assume He deems me worthy of redemption as well.
I wish I was a Deborah or Barak. I’d love to say I’m a Gideon or an Ehud. The truth is that I’m really an Israelite. My sin is just as great, and that’s alarming. God’s redemption is even greater, and that’s comforting.
I’ve read the stories and know the pattern: sin. redemption. sin. redemption. I leave the text and the words of Amazing Grace echo in my mind.
Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me….
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now, I see.