God, if you fix “x” I promise I’ll never do “y” again
September 8, 2009 — greaserdanGenesis 32:9-12
9 Then Jacob prayed, “O God of my father Abraham, God of my father Isaac, O LORD, who said to me, ‘Go back to your country and your relatives, and I will make you prosper,’
10 I am unworthy of all the kindness and faithfulness you have shown your servant. I had only my staff when I crossed this Jordan, but now I have become two groups.
11 Save me, I pray, from the hand of my brother Esau, for I am afraid he will come and attack me, and also the mothers with their children.
12 But you have said, ‘I will surely make you prosper and will make your descendants like the sand of the sea, which cannot be counted.’ ”
I find myself identifying with Jacob in this Passage. What at first glance seems like a lofty and grand prayer, fails upon closer inspection. Up until this point in his life, Jacob has lied and deceived his immediate and extended family and grifted through life. He had certainly lived up to his name. He had not relied on God for his blessing, but rather on his own cunning and sly abilities. Suddenly, we see him cry out to God. Esau is coming, and he is not alone! The last interaction between the two brothers was not positive and Jacob is afraid of the actions his brother (and his 400 men) will take against him (32:7). Jacob’s prayer is not motivated by thanksgiving, but by fear and necessity. I can certainly relate. I have voiced more than a few prayers that were motivated by mistakes coming back to haunt me. The most recent examples that come to mind are procrastination and lengthy seminary assignments. The closer the due date (or time), the more “heartfelt” my prayers become. There are many more examples of insincere prayers that I have spoken over the years. In most cases when the request is granted, my actions reveal that my prayer was insincere and I go right back to the behavior that initially motivated my frantic prayers. Again, I find a parallel in Jacob. After the brothers reconcile, Jacob’s actions reveal a less than grateful heart that does not represent the lofty prayer language in 32:7. He lies to Esau and ditches him to go to Succoth. Jacob’s actions betray the kindness that Esau showed him.


